The "farther" we move away from God, the more intense the pain of the perceived separation and of the longing because we are in a Love relationship with Him.
We try to numb that pain with drugs or alcohol or other medicators. Medicators are not just drugs and alcohol but can be everything from workaholism to sexual addiction to obsession with the internet or obsession with the spiritual journey. But whatever the form, this medicator is always unsuccessful, and as the pain and longing return, we up the ante with more of what we have been using or with another medicator.
This same cycle may go on for a while until we have hit our head against the brick wall so much that we are bloodied and we finally see that the search is bringing us nothing but more pain. Then, we surrender, admitting that we have no idea what we are doing, where we are going, and asking for help. We may not even believe in God at this time, but what we have done is create an opening for God to rise in our remembrance.
These posts are similar to the over 2500 contained on The Divine Speaks website (www.thedivinespeaks.com) where God gives YOU the one that you need to hear at that time. Lawrence is the author of three books on emotional and spiritual healing, including "Thirteen Steps To Move From Victim Consciousness To God Consciousness: Healing Traumatic Experiences Including Sexual, Physical, Emotional, And Mental Abuse."