You can't have both. You can't have God consciousness, you can't be awakened, and hold grievances at the same time.
Many want to be "enlightened" but still hold on to operating through their ego. This comes from a belief that they can't fully let go and trust God because they will be punished for sinning against Him. So the ego becomes a type of barrier or protection --- a false barrier but it is perceived this way. Then the ego becomes enamored with enlightenment, just as some people are attached to sex or money.
Awakening requires work and a strong will to see it through. It requires that in each and every instance, you forgive and drop your grievances. it requires that you be completely open to where God wants to take you. It requires an understanding that you (ego) does not know what is best for you because you do not understand Love and where your true joy lies.
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