Because you have free Will, you are your own redeemer or crucifier. His Love redeems us, but many choose to act as their own crucifier.
All of these thoughts and beliefs which you use to self judge and crucify yourself are not real. Only your relationship with Him and His Love is Real. If you release all self judgment, He will be there because He was never not there. Your beliefs covered up recognition of His Presence.
These posts are similar to the over 2500 contained on The Divine Speaks website (www.thedivinespeaks.com) where God gives YOU the one that you need to hear at that time. Lawrence is the author of three books on emotional and spiritual healing, including "Thirteen Steps To Move From Victim Consciousness To God Consciousness: Healing Traumatic Experiences Including Sexual, Physical, Emotional, And Mental Abuse."