Is it possible that this sinful self portrait you have created is not true? That this guilt you have assigned to yourself, this belief He judges you and will punish you, is not true? For this is badly what you want --- to know that He does not see you the way you see yourself, that He loves His or Her most holy child whom He created. Did God create sin? Of course not! He created only sinless perfection, purity and holiness, as part of Himself, of Herself. Your sinful imaginings and false beliefs, this false world where you see yourself committing these sinful acts --- none of this is or will ever be true.